I am sitting here long after I should have turned off the computer for the night. I try to not work on Sunday’s but it doesn’t ever work out that way. I like to light a candle, pick a soundtrack and tap away. Yesterday was the wedding of Sarah & Dave, two beautiful souls who had a wonderfully relaxed afternoon ceremony followed by a picnic. There were kids everywhere, dancing, playing, running about, and it was so refreshing. The ceremony itself was emotional and touched me in a way I wasn’t able to shake for the rest of the day. This isn't uncommon - I find myself immersed so deeply in other people’s emotions and I’m moved, all the time. As I was editing just a few moments ago, it clicked over in my mind. That’s why I’m heavily addicted to this job, I thought, I’m addicted to feeling.
I am the type of person who loves to watch videos of soldier/dog reunions, or babies hearing for the first time or wedding videos like this. It’s not just things that make me cry, I love to watch people with joy splashed over their face. I love hearing people talk about what they love. I love listening to excitement and passion and joy. I love to watch & feel. Wedding vows kill me one hundred percent of the time. And when you get the goosebumps during speeches? That’s the best stuff. I can't be without it.
Joy comes in all different shapes, sizes and disguises. It’s bare feet on grass and running into the arms of your loved ones. It's being so overwhelmed with happiness, that tears spill over. When I was editing the above frames this evening, all I could think was: you are so lucky to bear witness to this all the time. This job isn’t just for other people, it serves a purpose for me. It moves me. It reminds me that there's always something to notice, to dwell on, to preserve and remember. It says: there's always something there, you just have to be open to it because sometimes it's hidden in moments that look like these.