I wish people would stop using the phrase "don't worry, it will work out." This is hypocritical, because I'm guilty of using the phrase myself. A lot. And it's because I use it mindlessly. I know sometimes I have felt that I don't quite know what to say, so I'd spill out the generic response.You see the problem with this, is the phrase only works when you're the one saying it and not receiving it. Hearing "don't worry" when you are in fact, worried, is like hearing "stay calm" when it is very much not a calm situation.
Over the years, I have faced so much uncertainty and I know that there is so much more of it to come. But during those times passed, I remember being so infuriated by people telling me just "don't worry." Like thank you, I will try harder at this "not worrying" business. I will try like it's my job. But surprise, surprise, the uncertainty would stay until it's time was over.
Lately I've been thinking, rather than "not worrying" I prefer: "ride it out." And ride it out with courage, determination & gusto. Uncertainty is a key building block to growth and success and you can write that on my tombstone because I believe it with my whole, uncertain heart. Uncertainty forces us to make decisions that reflect our true intent. It builds our character, it lets you flow here and there until you hit the right stream. You are allowed to feel nervous and worried. You are allowed to feel all of these things because periods of transformation are in fact, scary. Just don't let it become you.
Hindsight is what has made me believe in all of this. When I was 17 and I finished school I took a "gap year" or what I should probably call a "limbo year". I floated about and remained hung between what I should do, what I wanted to do and what made the most sense. There is no denying that at the time, I had no idea. I really, truly didn't. It drove me batty. People would ask me about my plans and I would have something rehearsed to tell them and hope that they would believe it. Considering at the time, I did not, it is likely they did not either. I made some guesses, I enrolled in my degree on a whim and five years later, here I am. How the heck did it all happen? Seriously, how? Five years of my life spilled by, and somehow I run a full time business and study part time. Someone asked me how it happened the other day and I had nothing to say. I could only really tell them it just did. It just did - how pathetic, but true. It unfolded this way because I liked something and I followed it. Generally much of my life is that way (thank you, Mum, for the ferocious determination gene).
I don't know what's next. When people ask me about 2018, I think nothing. Quite unusual for a highly organised, schedule-adoring individual like myself. But watch me ride it out. In the months to come, I will be unsure of things, in the years to come I might need to change direction in a very small or very large way. We will see. But there is beauty in the fact that I have made it through a limbo year already, and I know that I can do it again. So yes, maybe I don't "need to worry", but rather: know that whatever comes my way, I will ride it out and make it to where I should be. And you will too. Keep on keeping on. You are doing a brilliant job in the place you are in right now.